Sometime I really want to blast up. Why don’t you see how much I struggle? I don’t even take breakfast properly. It feels like I’m struggling with time. I don’t even enjoy rain nowdays because it comes when I’m on my way back to home and it makes hard to get an auto. No autos, I will reach home late then at what time I will start cooking. Oh feeling so hungry but there aint be anything at home to eat. The smell of parathas nearby is killing me because I can’t have it as I’m running out of time. What do you think is there a problem with this rain, time, with autos, with my office timing or my client calls. I think all are responsible as I had planned my day so well but nothing worked out.
But you seemed to be ignorant because you did not want to know the reason behind late dinner, behind waking me up late, behind not wanting to wash clothes, behind beating my child. I do feel guilty because I did not pack your lunch properly. I’m sorry that sometimes I pick up something easy to cook which may not taste great. I feel sad because I don’t cook anything special for our child. I don’t play with her. I don’t give attention to her studies.
No No I’m not telling you to take up all these responsibility. Nor I’m complaining or doubting your capabilities.Please I want you to understand that I need a helping hand. I just want you to take care of few things. Atleast you can pack your lunch or may be taking our daughter to her school bus stand. Is it such a big task? But please whatever you pick up take it as your responsibility and remember responsibility comes with the tag of forever. Even though I know that my words will go waste in few days. You will again be same and I will again be back in that depressing world, fighting with time, cursing rain and cursing this whole world because I know I’m not wrong. I had planned everything right.
khamosh dhadkanen 
Are you okay dear?
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Assalamu alaikum sis. Oh Alhumdulillah I’m fyn 🙂 So nice to know that you got concerned. Hehhe. Its just a random thought which I feel most of the working women faces specially when you have child to take care. Even sometimes I also go thru same kind of depressing phase. But Alhumdulillah we have Quran to guide us which says “have patience” 🙂 . Sometimes i do fail 😦 but sometimes i really follow this teaching.
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Good to hear you are okay. I don’t work so I don’t know what it feels like but I have a friend who does and she is constantly under a lot of stress
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Ya I know lots of stress dear. That’s why Allah did not emphasized for women to work as already we are wrapped up in so many responsibilities. Anyways may Allah make us strong. Ameen
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Ameen to that dear sister and may Allah swt relieve all women of that stress insha’Allah Ameen
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I believe woman is capable of doing tough tasks. She can perform the duties of her husband but husband often finds it difficult to perform her tasks.
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That was quite saddening. All I could say is look up.
And know that He knows. 🙂
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This is how I totally feel nowadays. Times flies so fast, even when we plan things it does not go the way we want and it deeply affect my mental health.
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As I had told you. not to worry some days are like that or infact you can say most of the days. Lolll.
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